the dogs were barking like a mad lot outside, they sounded like they were crying for me.
i don't know what to do. i really love you, although you are the wrong person.
i've never loved someone this way before. i miss the happy times together.
but what can i do. i was never one that rebelled against my parents. i hate seeing them heartbroken, tears streaming down their faces for me. i hate myself for their sleepless nights and worried faces.
the following months, will be tough ones for you and me. i know i have to get used to you not being around. with all the odd glances in hall and questioning from everyone. but it doesn't matter. all i worry about is if you are strong enough to face this. strong enough to preserve yourself for the right one to come along.
i'm sorry. i'm really really sorry for breaking all your dreams, but i can't turn my back on my parents.
deep down i'm really afraid. i'm so scared i can't pull through this few months. and i wonder when i will ever heal again. walking on the paths we used to share. the places with our memories. i don't know anymore. i just wish you will be strong enough to be happy again one day. then it won't matter anymore how sad or how weak i am.
i'm sorry. =(