uni life is a craze. hectic, fast-winded, you seem to be enjoying yourself but yet you feel so lost.
you feel this vague grasp of what you need to do but you are being rushed by the limited amount of time.
i love my uni life. i love going to lectures with superb professors that never fail to make our lessons as fun and as intriguing as ever. i love going to tutorials that makes you ponder over the tiniest everyday life detail. i love meeting new nice people around the campus. i love walking up the slope to my seclude room although it IS tiring. i love being involved and being part of NTU.
but yet i feel that i am losing parts of myself..parts which i hold dear to..
i'm losing my passion for music, leave alone not producing music, i don't even listen to them as frequently anymore. i feel like i'm more and more distant from my dream. >< last night after the long talk with mona by the piano, i felt the sudden awakening in my heart to go back to them. i cried myself to sleep listening to those songs and music i love. i really hope i'll get the position of the music director. i need to be in touch again.
i'm losing my habit of reading. i have been reading the glass books of dream eaters since forever. >< its gonna make a record cuz i've never held on to a book that long before. but i simply have no time!! there are tons of readings for every of my subject its scary. for once in my life the idea of reading traumatises me. rar.
and i feel as if i can't write anymore. i'm afraid. i don't want to lose that.
i guess i can't be greedy. but these are things precious to me. can i just be greedy for this lifetime?
Saturday, August 30, 2008 at 11:46 AM
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why, why and why..i ask myself..
i am not one who cannot accept failure i know.
but perhaps this is God's way of saying no this is not the path you should take.
Thank you Father, for pointing the way =)
Saturday, August 16, 2008 at 5:30 PM
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in the midst of weaving new relationships into my life
i just can't help but wish, that we as human, could be simpler...
but sometimes we just can't control our emotions, the way we can't control the growth and evolution of language
and yes at many times we are trapped into the very time and space where we make wrong decisions, and we are forced to the dead end staring into these wrong choices we make
sad isn't it, our life. but i really, sincerely hope. that i will choose the right path, at the correct time and space.
today is a happy day, with God, epson, wii, chit chats---i need to study! o.O
Monday, August 11, 2008 at 12:16 AM
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