Writing is flying in dreams.

2008-12-27T02:03:00.002+08:00

the dogs were barking like a mad lot outside, they sounded like they were crying for me.
i don't know what to do. i really love you, although you are the wrong person.
i've never loved someone this way before. i miss the happy times together.

but what can i do. i was never one that rebelled against my parents. i hate seeing them heartbroken, tears streaming down their faces for me. i hate myself for their sleepless nights and worried faces.

the following months, will be tough ones for you and me. i know i have to get used to you not being around. with all the odd glances in hall and questioning from everyone. but it doesn't matter. all i worry about is if you are strong enough to face this. strong enough to preserve yourself for the right one to come along.

i'm sorry. i'm really really sorry for breaking all your dreams, but i can't turn my back on my parents.

deep down i'm really afraid. i'm so scared i can't pull through this few months. and i wonder when i will ever heal again. walking on the paths we used to share. the places with our memories. i don't know anymore. i just wish you will be strong enough to be happy again one day. then it won't matter anymore how sad or how weak i am.

i'm sorry. =(

2008-10-07T03:24:00.001+08:00

uber proud of myself for finishing the buddhism essay. breakthrough man. can never imagine myself writing on buddhism. haha. pat on the back! this week will be a tough one. hold on tight!

2008-10-02T00:26:00.003+08:00

since i was a little girl i dreamt of playing the harp. its just so....anglical. so pure. something that is out of reach. one of my resolutions this year was to pick up the harp, but i found out how expensive a harp was o.o although i can always rent it but..i knew i couldn't afford. i can't even pay for my living expenses. i need to get a job =(

anyway. harpfest in 4 weeks time. i can't think of anyone to go to the opening concert with me..its been ages since i went for a concert alone. maybe..i should go alone?

watching a concert alone is an extraordinary experience. it is somewhat different from watching it with friends. you delve into thoughts deeper and somehow, you are more immersed in the music. =)

2008-09-26T04:01:00.001+08:00

oh no.
is it you? or is it just me.
somehow i'm losing control...
but i thank you for being there.
i feel cared for.

2008-09-08T03:32:00.004+08:00

sometimes things don't turn out the way you want it to be..

sometimes you regret over things you know won't change even if you regret all the time.. >.<

i need to wind my biological clock.

how should i change the way my life looks like now.

i want to have more time to study because linguistics is such a deep and broad subject..
i want to watch those movies i've always wanted to watch that are stacking up high
i want to watch my collection of french movies and practice french a lot more
i want to finish reading my glass books book
i want to watch my buffered simpsons episode
i want to get the hang of my blurry chinese history
i want to give mum in japan, dad and bro in penang a big big hug

so many i wants. hah. we should have played i want instead of i never. i would have been drunk. XD

good night world.

2008-09-03T01:10:00.001+08:00

o.O
teletubbies are evil
teletubbies are creepy
teletubbies are speaks distorted languages
teletubbies are misleading
wonder how they sound like in other languages...

but i'm glad i didn't grow up with teletubbies XD
children under 2 shouldn't watch tv? o.O did i watch tv before 2?

2008-08-30T11:46:00.002+08:00

uni life is a craze. hectic, fast-winded, you seem to be enjoying yourself but yet you feel so lost.
you feel this vague grasp of what you need to do but you are being rushed by the limited amount of time.

i love my uni life. i love going to lectures with superb professors that never fail to make our lessons as fun and as intriguing as ever. i love going to tutorials that makes you ponder over the tiniest everyday life detail. i love meeting new nice people around the campus. i love walking up the slope to my seclude room although it IS tiring. i love being involved and being part of NTU.

but yet i feel that i am losing parts of myself..parts which i hold dear to..
i'm losing my passion for music, leave alone not producing music, i don't even listen to them as frequently anymore. i feel like i'm more and more distant from my dream. >< last night after the long talk with mona by the piano, i felt the sudden awakening in my heart to go back to them. i cried myself to sleep listening to those songs and music i love. i really hope i'll get the position of the music director. i need to be in touch again.

i'm losing my habit of reading. i have been reading the glass books of dream eaters since forever. >< its gonna make a record cuz i've never held on to a book that long before. but i simply have no time!! there are tons of readings for every of my subject its scary. for once in my life the idea of reading traumatises me. rar.

and i feel as if i can't write anymore. i'm afraid. i don't want to lose that.

i guess i can't be greedy. but these are things precious to me. can i just be greedy for this lifetime?

2008-08-16T17:30:00.001+08:00

why, why and why..i ask myself..
i am not one who cannot accept failure i know.

but perhaps this is God's way of saying no this is not the path you should take.
Thank you Father, for pointing the way =)

2008-08-11T00:16:00.003+08:00

in the midst of weaving new relationships into my life
i just can't help but wish, that we as human, could be simpler...
but sometimes we just can't control our emotions, the way we can't control the growth and evolution of language
and yes at many times we are trapped into the very time and space where we make wrong decisions, and we are forced to the dead end staring into these wrong choices we make

sad isn't it, our life. but i really, sincerely hope. that i will choose the right path, at the correct time and space.

today is a happy day, with God, epson, wii, chit chats---i need to study! o.O

2008-07-18T15:05:00.003+08:00

happy thoughts..

today is friday, 2 days before leaving. the day of my farewell party. i haven't finished packing and recording!! *panic mode* arghh.

but i'm happy bcuz i'm in the same og as chiann! oh man THANK GOD. that's a very good start, at least i won't feel insecure or awkward..yayness.
the next happy thing is that i received emails from mdm tan, my nyjc vp! asking abt my uni app outcome...how very heartwarming =)) i miss ny..wanna pop by soon!

okay. byeee...batman rocks ^^

2008-07-17T18:48:00.002+08:00

sorry my blog i've abandoned you once again! ahh. 3 days to leaving penang. i'll definitely miss this place. but i'm also looking forward to my uni life. recording the only song i've written for the entire holiday. what happened to all the promises i made to myself?! ahaha.

okay. i really need adobe audition to record my song on time sooo...*keeping my fingers crossed* hope the download is successful! please let the connection be smooth and fast.....hahas. hope it can be finished today! i really need to work under pressure. hahaha.

can't wait to go to casualpoet next saturday!

2008-06-24T13:07:00.002+08:00

ipod is on shuffle mode again.

somehow i don't know wat to write at my main/chinese blog anymore. maybe its because i now know ppl that i'm not aware of are reading it but WHY?! i actually thought that i don't mind whoever is reading my blogs..that probably shows that i do mind what ppl think of me =x

i guess that contributes too to my uncertainty. i feel so lost lately. *sidetrack:stupid system is extremely slow again rars*

2008-06-21T01:15:00.002+08:00

well yesterday i happened to be sms-ing kelvin when his irritating customer made him stay in the office till 9 plus. he was hungry and upset at the same time...i had an idea suddenly and sent him an mms:

i made him smile and i was happy. it has been ages since i'd even bother to send smses or mmses just to talk to someone or just to cheer someone up. for some unknown reason since studying in sg i've become lazy/can't be bothered to use my phone for such seemingly useless but priceless actions. i've turned into that cold blooded person who chosed to be ignorant and care free....

but i'm really glad penang has turned me humane again. =]

jason mraz is loveee. hehs.

2008-06-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

jz finished reading p.s. i love you. finally.
it feels warm and well to be able to drown in a book once again, laughing and crying wholeheartedly at the same time...i feel much better now.

sometimes people get tired of being strong, get tired of being assumed they are strong. wished i could be weak once in a while with someone to depend on. sometimes i scroll down the namelist on my phonebook without finding someone i can just call and yank about. actually...it's none of my friends' problem. its mine. my heart is locked.

and right now my eyes hurt so much i don't feel like doing homework anymore. sheeshh....>.< the homework has been there for like ages....wonder when i can finally get it done. ARGH.

2008-06-13T12:59:00.002+08:00

well i just needed to rant and i thought of this place so here i am.

have been sick for 3 days. haven't been to work for 2 days. so yes i got my wish to slaaack at home but i really don't wanna be sick. what is going on in my stomach?! i wished i knew. the pain isn't that frequent alr though. tmr is supposed to be a packed day. hopefully i'll be well by the end of the day =x

just had my smu law interview in the morning. and i just woke up minutes before the interview so i was quite nervous. my first answer didn't make any sense and also because the profs were talking through the loud speaker i guess so their questions weren't that clear. the rest of the interview was okay, but since we weren't face to face i couldn't figure out whether the profs were pleased or bored by my answers. only the lady mentioned that my reason for studying law was interesting :p oh well. mum still hopes that i might change my mind about studying linguistics. she also pointed out that i should have rejected the interview if i have no intention of going into law. but i guess i just wanted the affirmation. the chance to prove myself capable. stillll NO i wouldn't sell myself for money. NOO!

i'm 20 alr. i guess its normal to yearn for a life partner. i've been praying for the right one to appear because i don't wanna have anymore heartbreaks or break anyone elses heart. i'm really really envious when i see people in love, but it takes more than love for two people to stay together. guess..i have to keep on praying.

ok. enough of ranting. going off to watch august rush. whee.

PS:amy dear, i update my chi blog more often. thought you knew that. hehe.

2008-05-26T00:54:00.002+08:00

and yes i haven been updating for awhile.
i realised i have been busy but i really don't know what i'm busy doing. seems like i haven been doing anything productive. but such is working life. argh hate it. nvm. i'm quitting my job by end of june! so i'll have a whole month for myself before uni starts.

i feel uneasy when ppl ask oh so you are going to nus. yes i know nus the best uni in sg and blah blah blah but so what? i dunno. the fame of the uni isn't that impt to me. yes i got an offer from nus too..and its a course i'm pretty interested in..project and facilites management. buuuut. i like linguistics more. and ntu too. ahh oh well. i guess i shouldn't bother what others think or say. its me who is goin to uni right? sidetrack, the linguistics profs are so so nice. XD i sent an email last week saying i haven't got my offer letter. which actually did come but it went to my god bro's house in sg instead of mine in pg. and the prof actually called on that very day, to assure me that i have a place, adding 'you are one of the most excellent students, you must come!' oh man. i was speechless. i can't wait to see them in person but well when ppl have expectations on you that's where the pressure starts to load in. haha. i've experienced that for 5 yrs. i hope i won't let them down. i believe i have made the right choice, and i have followed my heart and desire :)) screw whatever ppl think of me. the hardest part is when ppl ask what are you goin to do in the future. actually i'm not very sure what i wanna be. =x its not like studying engineering and then you can tell ppl yes i wanna be an engineer. the narrow path is not for everyone =)

2008-04-17T17:32:00.000+08:00

FOR MY OWN EYES ONLY. =D

an·dan·te (än-dänt, n-dnt) Music adv. & adj. Abbr. and.In a moderately slow tempo, usually considered to be slower than allegretto but faster than adagio. Used chiefly as a direction.n.An andante passage or movement.
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[Italian, from present participle of andare, to walk, ultimately perhaps from Latin ambulre; see ambhi in Indo-European roots.]
Noun 1. andante - a moderately slow tempo (a walking pace)pacing, tempo - (music) the speed at which a composition is to be played 2. andante - a musical composition or musical passage to be performed moderately slowmusical composition, opus, piece of music, composition, piece - a musical work that has been created; "the composition is written in four movements"musical passage, passage - a short section of a musical composition Adj. 1. andante - (of tempo) moderately slowslow - at a slow tempo; "the band played a slow waltz" Adv. 1. andante - at a moderately slow tempo; "this passage must be played andante"music - an artistic form of auditory communication incorporating instrumental or vocal tones in a structured and continuous manner
1an·dan·te Pronunciation: \än-ˈdän-(ˌ)tā, -ˈdän-tē; an-ˈdan-tē\ Function: adverb or adjective Etymology: Italian, literally, going, present participle of andare to go Date: 1724 : moderately slow —usually used as a direction in music

Andante, Andante - ABBA

Take it easy with me, please touch me gently like a summer evening breeze take your time, make it slow andante, andante just let the feeling grow
Make your fingers soft and light let your body be the velvet of the night touch my soul, you know how andante, andante go slowly with me now
I’m your music I’m your song play me time and time again and make me strong make me sing make me sound andante, andante tread lightly on my ground andante, andante oh, please don’t let me down
There’s a shimmer in your eyes like the feeling of a thousand butterflies please don’t talk, go on, play andante, andante and let me float away
I’m your music I’m your song play me time and time again and make me strong make me sing make me sound andante, andante tread lightly on my ground andante, andante oh, please don’t let me down

* Piano Concerto 'Memo Flora' Written as a 'Memorandum on Flowers', this Concerto for piano consists of three movements, Flower, Petals and Bloom, that are, respectively, fast, slow and fast. The words 'Memo Flora' were written by the poet Kenji Miyazawa on the cover of a notebook that contained notes for a diagram of the placement of flowers (melody) in a flowerbed (score).II Petals - A light Andante, like flower petals floating on the water. A faint song on the quietly flowing water appears and disappears like a dream of long ago.

2008-04-16T12:44:00.002+08:00

the ultimate goal--

oxford!!!
they have brilliant linguistic and language courses. plus! it has the largest classic library in the world..gosh! imagine that. I just found out while preparing for my test on fri.

really hope that i'll pass the admission test...i wanna be a linguist!!!!!

2008-04-13T01:30:00.002+08:00

blog hopping has eaten up my time again. i was supposed to go to bed 1.5 hrs ago! >.<

anyway i have realised how pretty all my primary school friends have grown into.

wanga has a very scary list posted on her locked blog on the list of prcs from rjc hci and vjc that are in the top unis in us/uk. seems like more rjc-ians are in uk and hci-ians are in us. am very very jealous and intimidated. heez. er...well you can ask me for the list if you are curious. i guess dear dq won't mind.

yup but i'm all settled to have a wonderful uni life. so what if i get to go somewhere far and prestigious..i might get homesick again and there's high possibility that i won't be able to click with the people there. and i would most probably turn into a hermit again. at least being in sg makes home nearer. and at least i won't get THAT homesick anymore. yup but i am aiming to go somewhere else for my graduate studies..if i can make it. yahh and also settle the financial problems lahh.

i've been wondering, what if i get accepted for smu or nus law? should i really go for it? but law isn't exactly what i want to do. i think i would rather do linguistics/mass comm/literature. i hope God won't give me a hard time making decisions.

finally finished fh13, i think it is the most uninteresting volume in the series..to me lahh because the whole book focused on fighting and war. very boring for me. am reading mansfield park by jane austen now! it seems quite nice....hopefully i can finish the whole of jane austen's series by end of may. target!

i have been downloading a lot of random music lately..currently listening to this korean indie band(i think) called slow 6..surprisingly, its quite nice and pleasant! nights...eyelids drooping

2008-04-01T09:25:00.000+08:00

dang. jz when i was about to rant about how slow the system is today, it became normal again! hahas.
totally hate it when the system is down. pulls down volume effeciency and momentum. rars!

i was browsing through friends' and random blogs the other day. for once i wished for some simple happy romance. but i knew it would never happen to me. i am far too complicated and serious. hahas. *sobs*

2008-03-26T01:02:00.002+08:00

getting tired.

work is hectic, do repetitive stuff daily, lots of quota cuz 1st of april is intel's focal review day. can't really say much cuz intel policy to keep information secured. hahas. i scare they sue me if i accidentally say anything. and oh yah, my malay is improving. cuz almost all my colleagues(those that i work with frequently) are malay. sumtimes hav to msn in malay oso. haha! well that's the benefit of my job! although at many times i really dun understand their conversations. they speak too fast! like indons. hahs. and i'm too lazy to strain my ears to figure out. oh and sometimes they speak tamil which i totally dun understand. shld hav learnt some from aneesa miru or devi. heeees. miss the girls.

with work running so much and at many times OT, i hardly have time to process my uni stuff, and things are much harder as i'm not in Singapore. aaahhs. very hard to get testimonials and certificates. >.< i'm too lazy and tired to apply for any other stuff so currently i've onli applied for 4 unis, 3 scholarships. i guess God has his plan for me :D shouldn't worry too much. yeahs.

i feel really worned-out and my onli daily entertainment is tv and internet. dun even have time or energy to read, learn jap and sign lang, record songs, practice piano or guitar. i really wished i had more time but the irony is, that when i have time i just do nothing.

but i've been a good girl, spiritual life is going on the hill, though quite slowly, at least it shows progress! i guess pastor tamil has impacted me somehow. busy week ahead, graphic design homework to finish, spiritual church camp this weekend.

hopefully i'll get used to the tiring work routine so i won't be det tired anymore. ahahs.

2008-03-13T12:58:00.003+08:00

i'm not angry, but irritated by people who do not take responsibility of their writings and rantings on the net. =.= this is a brilliant example.

http://www.malaysia-today.net/2008/content/view/1958/46/
firstly on his claim on us incapable of speaking perfect english a.k.a. manglish.
hello, does it only apply to chinese?! what the heck is he talking about, do you mean all the malays and indians and whatsoevers in malaysia can speak perfect english and have never uttered a single word of MANGLISH?! shame on you mr michael, as if you can speak perfect english. =.= i'm sorry but i wonder if you realise, det ur accusation of every chinese in malaysia being incapable to speak more than 'semi-decent' english is frivolous. and i really WONDER, that you really intend to mean that the rest of Malaysia, every single one of them, can speak more than 'semi-decent' english, at least better than us. Wow.

i'm sorry, economic dominance? you call us fourth class citizen dogs, but as far as i know we work for our own future, because the government cannot give us a good one because all they do is babysit their own race. and i really WONDER, if you realise, that the economy is mainly motivated by us, and i'm 99% sure that the country's economy will collapse if we all go on strike!

what's the problem with watching television?? almost everyone in developed countries watches tv, erm, do you mean that ONLY us chinese watch tv? wow, because we are the only ones who can afford buying televisions? what fault do we have at watching tv dramas? people in the western countries chase after their tv dramas too, and if you think watching TV is really stupid, perhaps you yourself should stay away from it too. *nods nods* and sadly if that is what you think, i guess more than 50% of the world is stupid.

and i dun see a problem with the chinese way of life. let me show you..
MeN'S formula for life:
a) go to SCHOOL
b) Get a job
c) Get Married
d) Have your 2.3 children
e) Retire
f) Die

hello, do you not go to school, get a job, get married, have children, retire, and die? i'm really puzzled. i guess u must be an alien then.

you accuse us of eating all the time, excuse me, do you not eat the same amount of meals as we do? since you think, eating is pointless, and it all amounts to a pile of shit, i guess you should probably opt not to eat, or perhaps, you should eat shit? den i guess it would come out faster as you can save ur body of all the processes of digesting food? furthermore, i'd be really glad to know who in the world does not care about food. people who care most about food should be the africans i guess, and since YOU are the only person i know that does not care about food, perhaps you should be kind enough to donate yours to them. ah, i have another suggestion. how about eating your own shit, it would save you a lot of money from spending on food XD

unfortunately, i have an IQ of three digits, i wonder if yours is only single digit. because i have gone through every single process that you think, makes malaysian chinese stupid, and i have an IQ of three digits, maybe you are the one that is at the very end of human civility after all. HAHA.

after all what you have written proves yourself to be one of low iq and eq, and i might seem stupid getting mad over all the rubbish such a lousy person has written, but it is perfectly normal for a girl to defend her own race that she is very proud of. i guess you might not understand, as you dun seem to comprehend the importance of us going to chinese schools, and that is to preserve our roots and traditions. and behold, we are no lousier than the rest of malaysia, because we study one subject more, we score more A's and do better than you. SHAME ON YOU.

2008-02-20T01:36:00.002+08:00

malaysia's petronas really produces good cny adverts. they make me tear almost every year. go youtube the 2008 one! it's rather sad. there are eng subs too.

i must blog about my singapore trip tmr, if not i'll get too lazy will eventually not blog abt it. hehs.

hopefully no more food poisoning by tmr. nights!

2008-02-03T03:18:00.000+08:00

i'm here at 3am in the morning because..
i watched the freedom writers and cried too badly
my eyes are all sore and i can't go to sleep now though there is church tmr
bcuz i rather go to church with dark eye rings than swollen eyes. haha.

anyway it is a wonderful movie. i can say it is quite on par with dead poet society. the power of literature! XD
i love seeing lives changed, especially by ordinary people like teachers.
and the hard times those kids struggle to live against. the very heavy burden they bear we in this part of the world will never understand. the dark side of america we would never imagine of while we look at all those cool and glamorous mtvs. my heart cries for them.

well i really hope i won't have swollen eyes when i wake up tmr =x its been almost a week sinced i started driving with my new car. i've decided to name it anatole. hehe. i really liked him in sepulchre although he died early. its a french name everyone! though i don't really know the pronuciation. anyway anatole has one of its front lights blown because er, i banged into my neighbour's car =x and i just realised today. geez. but i think i'm getting better at driving, no? yayness.

i'm drowning in club 8's music! currently i'm listening to their latest album the boy who couldn't stop dreaming. a wonderful listening experience for nights like this. can't believe i missed their gig in kl mid jan. then again, i don't think mum would approve of it. but still!! its so near yet so far. yoga in march and mayday in april. both genting! i guess i can't be greedy and go for both. =x mum has already been kind enuff to let me go to the 3 concerts in sg.

okay good night. i wanted to post club 8's lyrics but i can't find any of them at the moment. grr.

2008-01-23T01:57:00.000+08:00

the wheels on the bus go round and round....
haha, memorable night.
me and mum got together to play a trick on dad. wahaha.
mum got home at 11pm, without her car. and so we waited for dad to come back.
mum told dad on the phone det she was still out.
so dad came back at ard 1am, without his car too bcuz he was half drunked. haha.
so i obediently opened the door and 'reminded' him det mum isn't back yet.
dad panicked and started calling mum while mum was hiding in my room.
well in the end i told him there was a lizard in my room to bail him into my room.
ahahaha. was quite fun =p

we are a cheeky family

2008-01-17T01:06:00.000+08:00

okayy. i have the tendency to want to blog here instead of my space..err..cuz..
i'm too lazy to type in chinese. ahaha. and i can crap whatever i want here cuz its not that frequently visited my people except me. yes. haha. it jus shows how much random thoughts i have nowadays because i'm too free.

now i've gotten back my internet i'm into to the horrible habit of staring at random webpages again >< i think i'm afraid of sleeping. gah. and i can't download my alvin and the chipmunks ost. i dunno why. !!!!! sigh.

got my university of auckland letter today! was uber excited. hahaha. although it doesn't mean anything..oh well. where does God wants me to go actually. ><

oh and i actually wanted to change a blog skin but i couldn't find any nicer than the current one. so yahh.

2008-01-16T20:49:00.000+08:00

i break down whenever it comes to driving ><

well, at least i have my new found tortoise to accompany me. say hi to the cutie.

2008-01-12T16:35:00.000+08:00

2008 has great music for a yearstart! woohoo
can't wait for jack johnson's album in feb..joanna from tw with her album start from here is brilliant..can't believe she is as young as me :p her voice sounds very mature.. gary's album is okayy, and quite addictive too! surprisingly aska's album sounds not bad ehh.. was a little touched when i listened to it on first hear. :D well i surely hope the music industry will thrive and blossom instead of succumbing to the commercial factors. gah.

well yes i'm still lazying at home...doing almost nothing meaningful but i'm gonna start classes soon :)) that makes me a little happier. And i am going to finish red mansion dream book1 this week! yes that sounds like an achievement doesn't it. hahaha.

another weekend gone...

2008-01-08T01:43:00.000+08:00

i caught inkheart's trailer a few weeks ago, when i went to watch national treasure
i was so excited i almost jumped off my chair! and i can't wait for the movie!!! the official screening date is in march but who knows when it will reach malaysia =x
watched the trailer again on youtube and i must say it looks brilliant..hope it will not disappoint readers! anyway the actors chosen for each role seems quite appropriate. i like meggie :)) brenden fraser is MO!

actually i'm in a bigger anticipation of the 3rd book inkdeath..heard its out already in germany..hope the translation will be finished soon!!! how i wished i can read german =x

owww the excitement of inkheart........www.inkheartmovie.com

2008-01-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

i have to stop staring at random web pages and go to sleep.
i have been doing that for two nights.
slept at 4am ystrdy.
okayy.

please, go zzz now.

+i've got a weird addiction of BUYING books instead of READING them. help me.+
latest additions:
susanna clarke-the ladies of grace adieu and other stories
alexandra poter-me and mr darcy
kate mosse-sepulchre

2008-01-04T15:56:00.000+08:00

i jus realised recently that frente! has 14 singles altogether, while i always thought all they had were two albums which i've found after much trouble. gahhhh! now i'm trying to get hold of all of their singles, which i only have 4 of them now. What frustrates me is that most of the songs are repeatedly placed in the singles or the albums. And there are like tons of different versions for each single. what's their problem!!! but never mind. at least i've found out that the latest single is dated 2005, try to think less. that means! there is a possibility that they are still active. huray. Apparently lead singer Angie Hart has another band with her husband named Splendid. However in my opinion, their album is not as splendid as frente!'s. Hmm. Maybe i need another few hears. :D

Okayy, back to studying lit!!! ><

2007-11-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

okay since i can't type in chinese, i might as well blog here now.
hahahas. updates!

due to unforeseen reasons i haven been able to read chinese webpages, and that means i can't check the daily stuff and blog as well, so i have resolved to facebook. haha.
was leafing through my friends' pages and its kinda weird to see all your friends changing into people you dunno already..and now they are all over the world! :p
and i seem to be still stucked here...drifting to and fro from penang to singapore. SIGH.

scary!
well i guess we all have our own lives now =/ hehs. i have great friends in S'pore too! although its not exactly the ideal place i'd like to live in...but you know, living there for 5 years...there's some emotions attached to the place...the hostel life..the daily bus routine...the shops...the people...and most importantly the dreams achieved there.

i guess i will miss the place some day...although i can't wait to move on. BUT i'm quite sure i will still land up there next year. SIGH.

2007-02-06T15:45:00.000+08:00

GREAT!
i finally got back my dear thumbdrive.
guess wat it was in the com lab sumone used it and deleted all my files =x
crazy person.
anyway!
thank God i hv it back now. haha

2007-01-31T23:01:00.000+08:00

i'm going mad with school work.
God bless me for friday's econs test.
aaarrgghh.
anyway.
all the best for my frens who are in the one preliminary rounds tmr!
esp inno band :) dun rmbr your band name haha.
jiayou!

2007-01-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

some one :(
someone took away my dear dear thumbdrive + mp3 player.
horrible!!
return in to me!!!
;_; sobs...
the start of another hectic week x_x

2007-01-28T02:47:00.000+08:00

oh no i've lost my momentum.
hahaha.
but i have been really busy lately..and due to my internet account det has been empty for the past week..hahas.
oh well. j2 life isn't easy if you do take your studies really seriously.
i think the teachers are crazy.
how do you expect us to study while you give us so much work to do?
sighs.
and h3 chinese is sort of killing me while i am enjoying it.
feel so torned apart.
this is me.

2007-01-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

heyys. :)
today was a rather hectic day..full day from 8am to 5pm and onli half an hour break after gp. det sounds scary..i had to eat chocolates to stop myself from falling into the web of daydreams and stoning. gosh. hahas.
anyway..e chinese test was rather ok..hahas.i managed to write abt 3 pages in less den half an hour.waha. i really like cha guan e play a lot. i like it more den othello, although i am growing to like othello..ahas. and mr huang hao wei is really good at teaching. i like the way he speaks! and his way of teaching is different from zhang lao shi although they are both very good.
gp tutorial has become the most dreaded period on my timetable =x but today we managed to make it fun getting high with my group consisting of mardhiah chu jun and wei hao..ahahaha..i guess it would be more fun with wingki..we were discussing if acceptance was the only way to deal with teenagers.hohos.
short story reading club today! that's what took up the whole of my common lunch break :D i really liked it..today mr bong and mr lawrence dropped by..and then we ended up talking about sex again..sighs. we are always like that when ms kwok is around. hahahaha. anyway it is this short story about a 76 year old prostitute who was anticipating death and trained her dog to cry at her graveyard every sunday. hahas. i hate the ending though..din really get it. but we did a lot of meaningful and thoughtful discussions.
lit was fun as usual..we were discussing othello the production..me and junxian shared about the set while the others did e costuming..hahahas. and i did smth quite wrong cuz when ms kwok asked what would it portray if desdemona would die in her night gown. den i said vulnerable? den she starting going about bras..haha..den junxian and the other guy in our class looked like they were going to pass out and all the girls started laughing like mad.
hmms den i.Nnovation orientation!we showed sisters and angel and i watched it all over again. quite a lot of j1s turned up. and then we went to macs to discuss our script but kept on digressing while i had a hard time trying to go back to the main topic.
oh well. there are tons of homework but i am in a blogging mood. hahahaha. wow such a long diary entry! must keep up the momentum!

2007-01-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

hhmmss.
there is e hostel green house meeting on right now but i feel like being late once in a while.
aha.
well today..
one of my og girls broke down cuz she really couldn't fit in her class..
it isn't the first time but i really felt sorry for her..
it reminded me of myself.
really hope she would be better soon!
yups..and i need to work really hard for maths now =x
had fun planning for script of new movie with dickson today after school.
haha, filming is jz so exciting at times. and there are times when it is boring and mundane.
sobs.
better rush for house meeting!
woohoo

2007-01-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

reviving my english blog!
hahaha.
hope for 2007 i will be a more constant blogger.
sighs.
i have been a very busy person for the past year but this year..
i guess i will remain busy but i have recently withdrew from choir and next will be guitar.
hmms.
yar going back to studying now.
oh well!
i dunno why i get hungry and tired easily this yr...i guess its because i'm older now?
blehhhs.

2006-09-06T14:04:00.000+08:00

I've done 54 things out of 99 things
[1] I have read a book before.
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[ ] I have been on some sort of sports team.
[2] I have watched cartoons for hours before.
[3] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[ ] have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] have been snowboarding/skiing.
[4] I have played ping pong.
[5] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[6] I have seen fireworks.
[ ] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[7] I have almost drowned.
[8] I have been so embarrassed I wanted todisappear.
[9] I have listened to one cd over & over & overagain.
[10] I have had stitch(es).
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[11] I have stayed up til 6am doinghomework/projects.
[ ] I currently have a job.
[12] I have been ice skating.
[ ] I have been rollerblading. (Or at least tried =/)
[13] I have fallen flat on my face.
[14] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[15] I have played videogames/com for more than 3hours straight.
[16] I have watched The Power Rangers before.
[17] I do / have attended Church regularly.
[18] I have played truth or dare.
[19] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[20] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[21] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[22] I've been in a verbal argument.
[23] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've swam on a team.
[24] I've been swimming more than 20 times in mylife.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[25] I've climbed a rock wall before.
[26] I've lost more than $20.
[27] I've called myself an idiot.
[ ] I've called someone else an idiot.
[28] I've cried myself to sleep
[29] I've had (or have) pets.
[ ] I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape.
[ ] I've owned a Britney Spears cd.
[30] I've owned an N*Sync cd.
[ ] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
[ ] I've mooned someone.
[31] I've sworn at someone in authority.
[32] I've been in the schoolnewspaper / insights.
[33] I've been on TV.
[34] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[ ] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[35] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once.
[ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[36] I've watched Looney Tunes before.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker.
[ ] I've been called a geek.
[37]I've studied hard for a test and got a badgrade.
[ ] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[38] I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist.
[39] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[40] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[41] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[42] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[43] I've had / have siblings.
[44] I've been to a rock concert.
[45] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[46] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class or so.
[47] Ive been picked in that middle-range in gymclass.
[48] I've cried in front of my friends.
[49] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[50] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I’ve vomited in public.
[51] I've washed someone else’s vomit.
[ ] I’ve ran away.
[ ] I’ve had a stalker.
[ ] I've had a fight with someone on txt.
[ ] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[ ] I've been in a car accident.
[52] I've forgiven someone who has done something bad to me (recently).
[53] I've personally seen someone die.
[ ] I've been confronted by a police officer but got away.
[54] I've lost someone who meant the world
This blog is becoming a tagging blog. hahaha.
never trust myself on the computer.
cuz i promised i would leave the computer by 1.30 pm.
and now its 2.11 pm.
buhbye--need to go do math again.

2006-08-26T12:23:00.000+08:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.

haha. played this with my walkman phone. but i shall not tag anyone. not in a tagging mood.

How are you feeling today?
God of Gambles(dushen).Mayday 赌神。五月天
我說　冷靜　我沉住氣幸運　在我手心
haha hope this is true. yup. i should calm down and hold on to my luck. although i dun believe in luck.

Will you get far in life?
Deserts Ride.Deserts deserts ride.张悬
What do you want to hide/Silence instead comes up a knife/Sharp but harmless/what do you want to guard with/Faith murmured in a low voice/Warmth creeping unto your face/I see Mr. Love dancing on the speeding dice/Not knowing which face to reside/Another cigarette is tipped to the fire/I opened my eyes/Gazed at the purple sky/The bus has already arrived/Waiting for a joy ride?I’ll meet you/Deep inside
erm..means? haha, hidden meanings.

How do your friends see you?
Mysterious Gift(shenmiliwu).Cao Fang 神秘礼物。曹方
oo my friends think i'm mysterious?

Will you get married?
What Is Real(youshenmeshizhende).The Peppermints 有什么是真的。薄荷叶
解讀我的眼睛解構我的生命傾聽未盲的心拼湊著殘缺不齊批判純粹的真理
should be a yes?

What is your best friend's theme song?
Why(weishenme).Mayday 为什么。五月天
haha! so my friends spend their life asking why?

What is the story of your life?
The Colour of First Love(chuliandefensexi).Nanquan Mama 初恋的粉色系。南拳妈妈
初戀的粉色系任性的大眼睛像棉花糖般俏皮又淘氣沒有雲好天氣像戀愛的心情
OH man.i dun wanna spend my life like that.

What was high school like?
The Man that mends the Moon(xiubuyueliangdenanren).bearbabes 修补月亮的男人。熊宝贝
ya..my high school life is as dark and exciting as the night.hahaha.

How can you get ahead in life?
Scream.Deserts scream。张悬
yea. i should scream. i'm losing everything.

What is the best thing about your friends?
Autumn(zaixiatian).cao fang 在夏天。曹方
they are nice, sincere, truthful. just like this song. and i mean those that i really regard as friends.

What is in store for this weekend?
i dare you to move. switchfoot
everyone's here, everybody's watching you now. everybody waits for you now.
what happens next?
oo. yea. haha. hope i hv this atmosphere for my competition.

What song describes you?
Not Far From Home(lijiabuyuan).Nanquan Mama 离家不远。南拳妈妈
隨著成長　遠離家鄉回頭遙望　我滿肩堅強為了夢想　振翅飛翔怎麼遺忘　熟悉的家鄉
當我張開翅膀　試圖往夢裡闖　時間卻不經意　迷失家的方向　
當我滿載成就　回頭向起點望　灰塵佈滿翅膀　飛不回那扇窗
true true! XD oh man.

To describe your grandparents?
Satire(fengci).Ciacia 讽刺。何欣穗
? weird.

How is your life going?
universe.zayin 宇宙。展翼
我要试着飞出你的宇宙……
this song is still playing..

What song will they play at your funeral?
Crystal Dragonfly(shuijingqingting).Nanquan Mama 水晶蜻蜓。南拳妈妈
往飛機窗戶外睜開眼睛感覺一片灰仔細看有房子房子裡的人忙著努力跟隨一個找不到真正快樂的童話他們的麻木讓我好害怕是不是整個世界的希望已被吸走
所以一步一步往前進是為了留住水晶蜻蜓有一天我會看得見閉著眼睛飛過海洋的原因
cool song to play at my funeral. ha.

How does the world see you?
Fish Can(yuguantou).NaturalQ 鱼罐头。自然卷
一開始每天都唱情歌沒多久正眼就不看我難道是我已變成魚罐頭OH NO NO NO
omg i'm a fish can to the world?! aahhhhh

Will you have a happy life?
Air.Sodagreen 空气里的视听与幻觉。苏打绿
找一个往蓝天的入口……
ooo..det means i will? i really hope so tooo

What do your friends really think of you?
Feels Good With You(youniduohao).Yuheng 有你多好。宇恒
nice. good. hahaha.

Do people secretly lust after you?
Migratory Bird(houniao).Mayday 候鸟。五月天
my favourite song!! but i dun get it. hahs.

How can I make myself happy?
Rock.Nanquan Mama Rock。南拳妈妈
Rock your head Shake your hand 不管男生或女生Rock your body Shake your hand
hahas. great.

What should you do with your life?
Meet Me(yujianwo).Cao fang 遇见我。曹方
是雨水它让人坚强路总是越走越远城市和花园我自由的标签在这里或那里勇敢着
yea. continue to live life strong.

Will you ever have children?
The Couple at the Street(zuozaixiangkoudenaduinanv).NaturalQ 坐在巷口的那对男女。自然卷
i guess that means a yes?

2006-08-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

from wanga
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your blog

1. All the best for next saturday! :D ~thanks!
2. Not listening to music for one month. ~dun think i can make it.haha! u really know me well.
3. Black ~ woah! shocked. haha. why?
4. I like your music! You have great music taste too!! I like the fact that you dare to persue what you want in life. ~thanks lots man.
5. Um, how about shinchiann's mayday fan friend from mgs? ~! XD
6. DEER! ~ why deer?! XD
7. Would you rather comform to soceity norm or just be yourself while others point fingers at you? ~ haha. you know me. i'll rather be myself. i've always been that. X)

2006-08-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

i'm dying.
stupid school.
i wanna go home!!!!
what's wrong with you guys.
:(
i haven seen my home for ages.
i need to go and recharge myself.
i'm dying here.

oh well.
besides that..nyjc i do love you..

2006-08-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

went to stream of praise worship concert tonight.
has been yrs since the 1st time i watch them.
before e worship started i told God, no i'm not gonna expect anything, i'll jz enjoy ur presence..
when the music started everything was different.
i felt joy and peace.
den in e middle of my fav worship song i started crying.
my heart was hurting very deeply.
den e worship leader asked us to put our hands over our hearts, and tell God whatever you needed to..although He knows all.
suddenly everything started to flash back....
Yes i know i haven been depending on Him..
i know he hasn't forsake me..
i'm sorry my dear Father, for drinking and hating..
for getting hurt and not turning to you..
after that i felt a strange stillness and peace in my heart..
also the sweet presence of confirmation by the Holy Spirit.
oh God.
I DO LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

2006-08-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-F4M4BwFVPU

my trailer! go support :)

2006-07-17T14:55:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling depresseeeeed.
dun ask me why.
i guess i'm overloaded..
i must learn to face it..cuz the stress wil onli get worse, not better.
oh i passed my gp! and i passed quite well..to me lar..not a just pass.. :) one tiny happy thing of the week.
det built my confidence. surprisingly i have been doing quite well for my english subjects.
today mrs teo told us about jap poems..she is cool man! she even studied jap lit..
i'm considering on taking eng lit for uni...i think i'm in love with literature...
i dunno..haha....i'm such an emotional gal.

2006-07-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

got back most of my midyr results...
welll....its one e most surprised exam i've ever took.
maths...i put in most effort but it came out the worst.
econs...i guess i din work enuff though i did work a lot :p a sub-pass isn't enough la..
chi lit...well..considering i got 6th in the level out of 80 ppl..it isn't det bad after all but still..quite depressing cuz its e 1st time i got a B for my chinese. Argh!!!
eng lit came as a big huge surprise...i din even study for it la..i was like playing around thru out e long week end and GOSH!got an A and highest in e level. ha.
GP---i passed my paper 1 but..hope i can pass overall la. wahaha.
oh well.
my maths disappointed me.
but today mrs huang called me to the front during ct period..i tot she wanted to scold me or smth..budden she said i had one of the best results in class :p hoho..i was like..hmm..mayb she read my results wrongly..oh, and she said my econs marks was pretty high..i was like huh?! 41.5 leh! hoho..
today had photo taking and sum ppl in my class fr another clique..they were acting weirdly towards me..as in..not treating me badly but as if they were talking abt smth abt me?!i dunno..dun care la..i never do..hahahaha....
angel angel angel..film fest is driving me nuts...and vectors toooo..
oh..after brainstorming for 2 days me and dickson settled on e ending of angel.i'm satisfied wif it! yahoooooooo
go make a wish on e seventh step www.angelontheseventhstep.com
sorry blog, i have abandoned u for like soooooooooooooo long

2006-06-27T17:20:00.000+08:00

i flunked my math and my econs. how great of me.
all the best to chinese lit huh.
sigh.

2006-06-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

goin bk to s'pore tmr.
argh i dun like e BACK.
i'm going to singapore tmr.
den sounds better :p
i feel sad.
i dun wanna leave..
bye penang..noooo..zaijian penang ^.^
det means we will meet again.
SOON.

2006-06-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

ohhhhhhhhh.
had a tiring day with apgp.
i can't do my maths and i'm worried. X(
cuz if i don't do well in my maths i might not get to study psychology.
oh well. den i continue worrying.
because i haven been doing very well for chi lit, which is e subject i am most confident in.
and den i am also dying with econs. there is so much theory to swallow.
den eng lit and gp..which i really really wanna do well but it's out of my control :(
den there goes my midyr~!
i really need to do well.. :(
i'm such a worrying wart.

my 3 wishes on my 1st dreamboard~
straight a's for A levels-by 07/08
go to taiwan for hohaiyan/springscream-by 09
own coffeeshop-by 2018

2006-06-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

hey i am a girl ok! sigh. yea yea..many have commented that i am very 'girl' for a girl. hoho.

seriously in love with totem :p their songs are stucked in my head! and i can't wait for neon's new album at the end of the year~jz found out det e lead singer jun is a malaysian! goodness..

watching 'gong' now..quite interesting.. ^.^

OK. I HAVE TO FINISH MY CHI LIT REVISION BY TMR.

AND MY ECONS BY MON.

SO I CAN DO MATHS, GP AND LIT NXT WEEK.

AAAAAAAH.

2006-06-14T15:35:00.000+08:00

i'm sooooooo proud of myself i have to blog!
wahaha.
1st time in my life i wrote out my song on score..and it sounds ok!!
as in it sounds exactly like me playing it on piano..
OMG!
i'm great. XD nvm..jus let me enjoy e moment of being on the top of the world.

2006-06-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

17th golden melody awards was superb.
e hosts were great.
e performances..i think they were great too, if they had took out e koreans..
i mean, whats wrong with the organisers..please, this is a chinese music event, could u at least give a chance for them to shine, it has already been bad enough to sing chinese versions of foreign songs.
wubai was the coolest man on earth tonight..
he scolded e stupid 'hallelujah', and also e stupid organisers det deleted e band performances.
OMG!
i love him man!
who cares about those koreans.
mchotdog and zhangzhenyue totally rocked e whole place!
and today i saw 2 sweet couples.
blackie and fan..cool!
cheer and tiger..ohh..should see cheer's tears when tiger got best producer..i felt like crying!
congrats to penny and yeechung for making Malaysia proud! i was sooo shocked and happy..
these ppl really touched my heart. i wish and dream det one day i could do myself proud to.
aih. i onli saw my dear cellur abt twice on tv :( poor sodagreen din get anything. but oh well.
they are the best in my heart! same goes to natural q and wonfu! xiaomin was super cute today..i like his hair XD

2006-06-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

i cut my hair!!!!
shall post my pix later..
i think i look ugly la.
aihs.
lalala.

tada! here it is..dun i look weird.. :p

2006-06-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

oh man.
i haven done anything today at alllll........
except for playing ard XP
right.
i shall go sleep now...
oh before i sleep i shall watch samsoon..its a great show..i like it!
mind you i seldom like korean shows..
AND I MUST CONTINUE STUDYING TMR.
MR POH IS SO GOING TO KILL MEEE...
MR TEO TOOO...IF HE FINDS OUT I HAVE 3 CCAS..
OH MY..
good night earth. ^.^

2006-06-06T14:11:00.000+08:00

oh.
i just feel like blogging la.
i can't upload my pix on my chi blog.
argh.
i'm supposed to b studying now.
mr poh taught me maths on msn ystrdy!
so funny..
going out to get some stuff.
buhbye...

2006-06-05T02:01:00.000+08:00

10 random things abt me:

1. i love sodagreen + deserts + tw underground bands XD
2. i'm totally in love with POOH
3. I LOVE NYJC!
4. its amazing how i miss e production crew of angel--dickson, chengwei, shijia, geokkhoon, songguang, soobee..i was hoping for e filming week to end real soon..but now i miss e time we were together
5. i dun wear earrings + watches + bracelets + rings ...
6. i'm turning into a hardworking school girl XD
7. i miss my old NYGB frens!! i'm in a worried state of them forgetting me.. :(
8. i like quiet & thoughtful guys.. XD
9. I LOVE PENANG! :D
10. i miss daniel very often :(

who to taggggg....i dun feel like tagging..i feel so bad everytime i tag someone..because.. oh well..
thanks to khoon who tagged me! haha..my random things are so borring..

2006-05-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING ZHAO!
haha this funny little sister.. :p
kept laughing and laughing beside me..
anyway she is amusing la.
she thinks both of us are clowns.
and she sent me this cute snoopy card det couldn't get thru so i had to read it from her com.
and she sent me this article saying our brain cannot process OF's.
wahaha!

u ah...old liao..mature liao..cannot keep on doing this kind of stuff ok!

XD

2006-05-18T12:47:00.000+08:00

NEW BLOG.
ok i created this blog because i was forced to.
argh.
i dunno how many blogs i have already!
this is crazy.
nvm, i shall think of what else to put on this blog.
BYE!
gotta go practice piano d.